A dramaless weekend. Just the way I like it. Had a great time with the kids. I’m so proud of them. It rained friday so we had to stay inside but we got out saturday morning and went swimming for a little while. I’ve been working on the new layout for tg for several weeks now but decided to take a break from that to do a little work to my new site. I upgraded the forum and re-added all the mods ( i hate doing that ). I spruced up a few things and added a couple of new features. All in all i’m pretty happy with it so far. There are just so many things to do that sometimes I get lost in what to do first. Luckily I have a couple of kewl people helping out. I think the site will really take off given time. I missed my kids on Father’s Day but that is one of the many prices you have to pay when you aren’t with the mother of your children. As I barely remember my father, that day doesn’t really mean a whole lot to me anyways. Though it would have been nice to have seen my kids that day. Their mother and I are friendly to each other but we rarely speak. Neither of us are bad people but there is too much heartache between us that will never be fully healed. I’m hoping things will be much easier for both of us when she graduates from nursing school and gets a job. She has a lot of burden she is carrying but much of it she brings on herself. She is almost like a stranger to me now. I don’t recognize the person I married and loved. I’m not saying that’s a good or bad thing. It’s just what i see. She will always be great to me as she gave me the two best kids anyone could ask for. For a long time I felt a lot of resentment towards her for the things she did and said, but that’s all in the past now. I’ve forgiven her and most importantly i’ve forgiven myself, because it takes two to make a marriage work and toward the end neither of us tried very hard. I hope we continue to have a civil relationship and her life becomes what she wants it to be. I’m happy in my life. I won’t say i’m content, but I am happy. I know i’m a bit quirky. I’m glad there are a few people in my life that accept that, heck even like that about me. I doubt I will ever be the guy that talks about his past and his “feelings” about it. I keep my demons inside. I don’t dwell on them so they aren’t an issue to me. Talking about them makes them an issue. Why people want to push each other for those demons i’ll never know. That is something that each individual should decide if they want to share or not. I have no issue with listening to other people’s problems but i’m no good at sharing mine. The closest i come to that is here in this little blog. Strangers that read this probably get a better view into my inner thoughts than people I interact with on a daily basis. Why can’t people just enjoy the company and companionship of another person without having to know every little detail of their life. All that comes with time. I’m very selective of what i tell to who, especially on the net. I’ve met some crazy folks in my time on the net. I’m not talking crazy as in goofy i’m talking crazy like stalk you down and harass you crazy. Although those instances were well into the past they influence how I deal with online people now. Very few people online that know me actually know me. For me most of the time that’s for the best. </ramblings>
Hey to my friends and the other assorted people that read this blogOmine. Today wasn’t too shabby. Was a pretty easy day at work. Got in a nice little nap ( yeah i’m gettin old ) when i got home. I ran into a friend of mine today that I hadn’t seen in years. He had joined the military the same time i did. He decided to go army. He just finished up his enlistment. He spent time in Iraq. I asked him what it was like over there right now. He said it wasn’t as bad as the media was making it out to be but it wasn’t great. I could sense he didn’t want to bad mouth our policy over there but you could tell he wasn’t happy with it. He’s married now and living in Texas. He was back to see his parents then he was headed back. I’m glad I ran into him. We swapped a few military stories and a few old times and said our goodbyes. Sometimes I really miss those guys and gals I knew in the military. They basically become semi-family.
On other fronts things are ok. I reopened a myspace account. I think this time i’m going to be adding a few more people so if you are interested in seeing all the crappy bulletins and glittery comments then just add me http://www.myspace.com/mikenmississippi ( warning if i don’t know you then you probably won’t get added so contact me to let me know who you are )
After recent events I had decided to go back into hermit mode. But after thinking about it for awhile i’ve decided why should I? Just because i’ve had one bad experience recently? That’s no reason to start shutting everyone out. I’m back in friends overdrive. Either they want to be my friend and accept me for the person i am or they can take that long walk on a short pier i’ve heard about. I spend way to much time trying to be what others want me to be instead of just being me and telling them to deal with it. So here it is. I’M ME DEAL WITH IT. For those that have emailed me about my old myspace i’ll be contacting you this weekend to re-add me. I never really liked the address of my other one anyways and a fresh start was needed. Heck i might even let the fake porn accounts add me lmao.
Some may wonder why it is i say the stuff that I do on my blog. a) I pay for the space and I have a right to say whatever it is I feel I wanna say. I’m not forcing anyone to read my thoughts and if you don’t like it then surf away just surf away. I’m not really writing the personal ones for you in so much as for me. b) I don’t like to burden people with my problems. I’m sure they have plenty of their own. I’m not the cry on your shoulder type. I deal with my own stuff in my own way. c) Alot of times when i’m writing something on here i’m not really thinking about what i’m saying. After re-reading it i get a true sense of how I feel about things. Many times i surprise myself with what i write. It’s like my inner demons are speaking through my blog lol. So blame them not me.
Onto Mike for President: My platform
a) Change the rules of engagement in Iraq. Tell the new govt. of Iraq that I want to see marked improvement as in NOW
b) Do away with border patrol that we have now. Make border patrol part of the military. Re-do the Coast Guard to include guarding our borders as well. Form bases on the border hotspots.
c) Put a heavy fine on employers that hire undocumented aliens.
d) For companies that move outside of the U.S. and foreign companies. Put a heavy import tax on all foreign imports. Have tax breaks on exports and tax breaks for companies that are in the U.S. that sell in the U.S. and abroad
Does any of that sound too hard to implement? I don’t think so. Then why can’t they seem to get it done?
Yeah i know i just did this one. This one deals with friends and friendships. What makes a good friendship? I obviously I have not idea. I thought it was just being there when a person needed help. Someone they could trust. At least that is what I thought it was. I’ve never had what you would call “alot” of close friends. Instead I usually have one or two people that i’m close to and the rest are just people I don’t call strangers. For me it’s not really easy to hang out with friends. I tell people up front my life is very very and i mean very busy. I have a job that is basically 24/7/365. And add to that two kids that I will drop anything else to be with and my time for extras is tight. Let me stress this again. I TELL PEOPLE THAT UP FRONT. I don’t know whether they think i’m exaggerating, lying, or what. But it always ends up with me being the bad guy because I can’t devote much time to them. I guess they have alot of free time and figure I have the same. On the subject of Friendship. Should friendship be a chore? Should you be made to feel like an asshole because you can’t devote major time to it? What do you do when your “friend” constantly berates your friendship abilities. How many times can you explain it has nothing to do with them as a person it’s simply a time issue. There is only so much you can take before you pop your top with someone like that. To me a friend is a friend no matter how often you see them. I made friends in the Marines Corps that I’ll probably never see again. Does that mean they are no longer my friend? I guess I just don’t understand people. How they can get so upset about such a small thing and blow it completely out of proportion. When a friendship starts to become more of a chore than a pleasure it’s probably time for the people to go their separate ways. Doesn’t mean either of the people are bad people. It just means that due to whatever personality conflicts the two just shouldn’t be friends. Not being friends should not mean they are enemies. Of course your other friends are going to take your side on the matter. That’s their job. There is nothing more sorry than to see one of their other friends or group of friends stick their nose into something they know nothing about. I know friends stick up for friends, but i would never want a friend of mine to do that to another person. I consider myself a pretty intelligent person and those little mind games aren’t going to upset me. All they do is make me think less of them. In my full life the last thing i want is drama. I will not tolerate it. Everything in my life isn’t perfect but I’m ok with that. I may bitch about my job but in truth i love what i do. It’s not the typical 9 to 5 same ole same ole everyday grind. Just from the one job my resume would look more like a book than a piece of paper. I have two of the best kids you could ever ask for and I treasure every single second I get to spend with them. I will cancel any plans I have just to spend any time with them. I’m fortunate to have a couple people in my life that understand this. They take me as I am and never ask for more than i’m willing or able to give. I don’t often talk about my personal life. Maybe it’s because I’ve been a loner most of my life or maybe i prefer self reflection or maybe even it’s because i’m a man from the south and we are taught to suck it up and be a man. I would like to take this time to just say a big thanks to two people. First to Cathey. I know you never read this so :P. She has been like a second mother to me for a long time. We don’t always see eye to eye but the great thing is when we don’t we tell each other like it is. Alot of people think she can be a real bitch but if you ever become her friend you couldn’t ask for a better one. Now let’s talk about Charity. I must only like C’s. Her life and outlook on life is very similar to mine. She is one of the most kind evil women I know. She is always willing to help others before herself and very few things rattle her. I’ve never met anyone that is more willing to help you than accept help for herself. She does it all with an air of modesty and dignity. I can’t thank you two enough for being my friends. Thanks for accepting me as I am and putting up with my quirks </sappy>
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