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A dramaless weekend. Just the way I like it. Had a great time with the kids. I’m so proud of them. It rained friday so we had to stay inside but we got out saturday morning and went swimming for a little while. I’ve been working on the new layout for tg for several weeks now but decided to take a break from that to do a little work to my new site. I upgraded the forum and re-added all the mods ( i hate doing that ). I spruced up a few things and added a couple of new features. All in all i’m pretty happy with it so far. There are just so many things to do that sometimes I get lost in what to do first. Luckily I have a couple of kewl people helping out. I think the site will really take off given time. I missed my kids on Father’s Day but that is one of the many prices you have to pay when you aren’t with the mother of your children. As I barely remember my father, that day doesn’t really mean a whole lot to me anyways. Though it would have been nice to have seen my kids that day. Their mother and I are friendly to each other but we rarely speak. Neither of us are bad people but there is too much heartache between us that will never be fully healed. I’m hoping things will be much easier for both of us when she graduates from nursing school and gets a job. She has a lot of burden she is carrying but much of it she brings on herself. She is almost like a stranger to me now. I don’t recognize the person I married and loved. I’m not saying that’s a good or bad thing. It’s just what i see. She will always be great to me as she gave me the two best kids anyone could ask for. For a long time I felt a lot of resentment towards her for the things she did and said, but that’s all in the past now. I’ve forgiven her and most importantly i’ve forgiven myself, because it takes two to make a marriage work and toward the end neither of us tried very hard. I hope we continue to have a civil relationship and her life becomes what she wants it to be. I’m happy in my life. I won’t say i’m content, but I am happy. I know i’m a bit quirky. I’m glad there are a few people in my life that accept that, heck even like that about me. I doubt I will ever be the guy that talks about his past and his “feelings” about it. I keep my demons inside. I don’t dwell on them so they aren’t an issue to me. Talking about them makes them an issue. Why people want to push each other for those demons i’ll never know. That is something that each individual should decide if they want to share or not. I have no issue with listening to other people’s problems but i’m no good at sharing mine. The closest i come to that is here in this little blog. Strangers that read this probably get a better view into my inner thoughts than people I interact with on a daily basis. Why can’t people just enjoy the company and companionship of another person without having to know every little detail of their life. All that comes with time. I’m very selective of what i tell to who, especially on the net. I’ve met some crazy folks in my time on the net. I’m not talking crazy as in goofy i’m talking crazy like stalk you down and harass you crazy. Although those instances were well into the past they influence how I deal with online people now. Very few people online that know me actually know me. For me most of the time that’s for the best. </ramblings>