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It seems people still have misconceptions as to why I left xt. I don’t know why I should even bring it back up, but I feel some people have some weird ideas about what happened. I was not forced out. I didn’t get into a pissing contest with other members. I simply felt my time on xt was over. I had serious concerns over the direction of the “team”. Once JJ left and I became the admin I tried my best to make things better. In my opinion the team grew too quickly. But as JJ added members, even as the new Admin I didn’t feel it was my place to remove anyone from the team. I knew the team was headed in a bad direction but I didn’t want the headache of dealing with it all. I have always preferred to partner up on things such as that. JJ said he picked me as admin because I had the least amount of public arguments on the board ( Go Figure ). So I felt like I owed JJ my best. Other members thought I should remove members as well but I really didn’t know of a good way to pick and choose who went and who stayed. So I decided it was best to just move on myself and let others handle it. I left on good terms with the team. If there were any that had ill feelings toward me they didn’t show it. The day I left was kinda sad for me in a way. When JJ added me to the team I was very honored as it wasn’t because I was a friend of his or other members. In fact I didn’t talk to any of them outside of the forum topics. I just tried to help others and well when I was added to the team I was surprised. Things progressed from there. I put all my time into techgear007. We had a pretty good room on msn and when it went to paid chat, we opened our own chat network ( I will discuss the whole TCN issue at another time ). Well for whatever reason we began to have problems with some xt members ( now some were active and some inactive or removed, it was hard to keep up with it all really ). We spent so much of our time fending off idiots from the server that it was no longer any fun. Now even though I had left xt, I felt I still had friends on the team and even more so at least a small degree of respect. I soon learned that wasn’t the case. I showed up in the xt chat a few times and watched as they ( yes they included active members ) badmouthed myself and my site. Now I’m not sure exactly what I did to deserve that as most of the ones badmouthing me had never spoken to me before. But hey not everyone will like you. I can live with that. Some said I was a tyrant and I was power hungry because I did not put things on tg like split bots and such. I made the decision to reduce the amount of “negative” programs on TG. I know some still got by but I did the best I could. People claimed I banned people left and right, when in fact over my years of hosting rooms and sites I have banned very few people and the ones I have banned I have unbanned if they simply asked me to. Anyways. Back to the xt chat. The convo’s turned to badmouthing people that I worked with that didn’t deserve it. I have always backed my friends even when it has cost me ( and it has cost me on more than a few occassions ). I don’t care what people say about me but I couldn’t sit there and watch them badmouth people i knew as friends. So I spoke up. Now many didn’t like what I had to say and I probably did go a bit far but I was tired of taking so I thought I would give a little. I still have respect for many of the members of the team past and present but I will always resent what a few people did to a team that was once all about helping people. I haven’t said any of this to open up old wounds. This is my blog and I assume I have the right to say whatever I wish and I felt like saying that. I’m not sure of the status with xt anymore. The few friends I have that are still on the team I seldom talk to. Not because of their team status but more so because we have just moved in different directions and have our own projects that keep us busy. If anyone ( yes including team members ) wish to ask a question concerning all that has happened I would be more than happy to answer it. If you disagree with anything i’ve said feel free to call me on it.