I’ve felt pretty bad for the last week. A cold has been keeping me down and out. Today I felt as though the cold was about gone and now my kidneys are giving me fits. Getting old sux big time. Normally I try to sleep through being sick but this time I just wasn’t able to sleep regularly. I did manage to get a lot of work done on techgear. i had gotten to a point where I just didn’t worry about the site. Other people were taking care of the day to day stuff and I ended up neglecting things big time. I finally got my butt in “gear” ( pun intended ) and did some much needed updates. A lot of it was behind the scenes as usual but the updates will really make it easier for me to keep the site updated in the future. Fortunately I’ve had some good people giving me feedback on the public changes i’ve made. Many times I think people are afraid to say anything negative about the site. I like honest opinions on what I do. It helps me grow as a designer. Now I don’t always follow what is suggested lol.
In addition to the “sickness” over the past week, I found myself once again in my funk mode. Where I just wanted to sit inside with the curtains drawn and the lights out, hiding myself from the world. I seem to fall into that mood very easily. I guess once my problems build up too high I sort of pull away from the world until I feel better about them. It hurts the people that care about me i’m sure. Guess i’m not used to having people care that much. Please don’t get me wrong. My life isn’t as horrible as it sounds as I read back. I’m a pretty happy person most times. I try not to dwell on the bad things too much. My usual method is just to go into loner mode for a bit. I’ve been a loner most of my life even though I had some good friends. It’s a hard habit to break.
On another note, today I saw yet another person talk about how they were cutting back on the net to get more involved with real life. What’s so great about real life. How is it so much better than what you do online. Online is part of my life. For some online is an escape from reality but for me it’s an outlet for creativity. I don’t really get online to chat all day. I get online to work on webdesign or graphics or just to learn new things. How is that a bad thing. How come that should take second place to real life. I dunno when i saw that it just bothered me. Anyways tomorrow is a new day.